heh...been a long time since i last update...being pestered by those who hav been making fun out of my expense thru out the penang trip...oh well...there goes...for those tt r not aware (u ought to be shot for not missing me...) yandao maojie left s'pore for a 5D3N trip to penang on a 9 hr freezing coach ride together wif 11 of his chio chio frens... would hav reached penang in a block of ice if not for my hot sleeping buddy kennie...thx bro...been nice toking to u...haha..reached berjaya hotel..will be bunking in wif clems for the next 3 days...checked into our room...everything is spolit!! tamade!! u call this a 4 star hotel?? demanded a new room...this 1 not too bad.. juz missing a radio...decided not to pursue the matter..after all i'm here to relax.. we straight away set off to get some bf...wah seh!! the food in penang is shiok sia...n cheap some more...ate like siao...whahaha... went to kek lok si temple after tt...almost kanna chop by the taxi drivers there...want to cheat my money?? neh u!!! lucky got ai ling...a local who i suspect operate a illegal taxi service under a pretence of her son's western food stall....aniwae she n her son r to be our drivers for next few days...the temple was magnificent...the architecture of the whole place was breath taking..esp the giant guan ying statue...awesome!! went to take a closer look via the temple's inclining lift..quite a cute idea i muz add...but a novelty nontheless..next stop was the botanical gardens..supposed to find the waterfall to go to penang hill's summit...only to find tt the remains of the waterfall is now a pathetic stream of water..sianz by half...decided to skip penang hill n head back to the hotel...after a quick shower we went to gurney plaza to shop...omg!! the things there r so cheap compared to s'pore!!! the 2nd day was spent in the beach...tried out parasailling jet skiing n banana boat...all damn shiok!! the view frm the top is simply out of this world... banana boat was fun wif all of us trying to stay onto the boat itself coz we keep capsizing...haha...jet ski is power!! was wif kennie again... we were like speeding at top speed all the way wif our zai sharp turns her n there....kennie had the distinction of being the first guy to fall frm the jet ski in 20 yrs of the operator's career....we salute u!!! bought a sarong..a straw hat for 8 ringgit tt looked exactly like the 1 i saw at british india yesterday at gurney plaza tt cost 40 ringgit...whahaha...i feel gd!! the final day of the trip was spent on shopping...bought so many things...levi's vintage 513 for 50 ringgit?? bum berms for 25 ringgit?? shoppers' heaven sia....except for my poor shopping buddy kennie...who seem to hav no fate wif all the things he want...haha...i feel sad for u dude... aniwae kennie n i decided liao...next time we will hav a shopping trip to m'sia...any1 onz?? haha...ok!! tt's all i'm writing liao...think is a lot...now tt the fun is over...its time to work...back to rag n flag!! gamate!!!

mao mao posted at 8:44 pm.

woah....juz got back frm sch building the float...heh...got a few curious stares frm some strangers in the bus wondering who is this kuku wif so much white plaster on him....heh...like i care wat u think lydat....oh well....day started off v early...met up wif shafiq n charles at 0930 to go look for prof ong for permission to get some plaster for our float...heh...she told us to start of wif a bit n ask prof keng for more...in the end...he gave us 25 kilo!!! prof... u da man!!! haha...later met up wif the rest of the class n started to do the float...started off v late as we were still running ard getting some materials here n there....but at least the ball is rolling...so tt is gd news...spent the rest of the day fixing up the bird...not bad lah...had pizza for dinner....kns!! next time muz ban clems n jon liao....they eat too fast...no fair!!! muz get more gals instead...then can eat their share.....whahahahaha....i'm evil....yesh i noe tt...thank yew veri much... fun started after dinner...
did quite a lot...fixed up the bird n started putting the paper marche over the body while we r starting to paint the pillars liao...not bad for the first day!!! heh....quite proud of the class....tho i think we can think of how to utilise our manpower more efficiently...left the place at 2230...aniwae....tmr is the chalet...whoohoo....i'm so gonna slack!!!!

mao mao posted at 12:05 am.

bz bz bz..... i've juz realised tt since the start of my hols....i din realli hav a chance to slack much.... can only think of 1 or 2 instances only... been v bz trying to do my foc n rag n flag stuff....n oso to plan for outings like the stupid windsurfing course tt was supposed to be held on mon...but now postpone to sat...coz the pple there cant get enuff instructors...bleah!!! waste my time.... now i hav to re-inform everyone again.... tamade!!! rag n flag is coming up..... i am SO excited!!! i can t believe it...i am actually looking forward to it... was at the dental lounge today wif the float pple....saw the 3d miniture tt they came up wif... damn nice!!! i am so proud of them....shafiq n jon never fail to impress me wif their artistic talent...aniwae i am happy things r moving now...coz i was quite concerned abt the time we hav to come up wif all these things...call me a pressimist... but i think we shld try to finish as much as we can during the hols rather than leaving it to the last min... not safe... aniwae tmr will be gg to barker...this time will be bring the float pple there to take a look at the workshop n oso to order the materials for the float.... heh...will oso be a gd time for me to c the scouts...feel v bad for not gg back to help out much... mabbe after rag n flag lah....heh....

mao mao posted at 10:37 pm.

security.... tt's a word tt has been hanging ard in my pea sized brain for quite some time now.... no...i'm not toking abt terrorism here... i'm toking abt myself... i hav been leaving this issue aside for some time liao... mabbe since i'm kinda hav more time in my hands now i can think abt it... do i come across as someone who cant give gals security?? i dunno... mabbe?? i think i'm juz another plain joe...nothing outstanding......recently my aunt came over my place...she was v depressed...coz grandpa passed away recently...decided to cheer her up... in the end started to tok cock.... can c her gettin better.... before she left she thanked me for cheering her up...but she gave me an advice i totally din expect...
8th aunt: "maojie..thx 4 cheering me up...now i feel much better...."
me: "no prob...can tok to me anythime..juz rem...if u want to be happy... hang ard wif happy pple..."
8th aunt: "ya..thx...........maojie...dun be so acessible to gals...it wont give ur future gf any sense of security..."
me: "huh???"
tot there is nuthin wrong wif hearing out frens' woes...in fact i feel honoured tt they actually trust me enuff to confide in me...but i guess tt was not the pt wat my aunt was trying to drive home to me...it is abt security...it rekindled in me wat a lot of my gal frens hav been telling me... " u wont make a gd bf...coz u noe n hang ard wif too many gals"....last sat was spent bumming in sentosa wif 2 hot babes in sentosa... was thinking abt this issue by the sea...so i told them abt this so called 'problem'...1 of them say tt she agree wif wat my frens say...then she starts to comment tt when we go out...i always seem to noe some pple...n wat she said basically echos wats my gal frens say....when a gal has a bf...she wants a monopoly over him..she will not want to c gals hanging ard him.......jealousy...the green eyed monster...but i guess the gf has every rite to be jealous lah... the other babe said...nvm lah...juz be urself...the gf shld juz accept me as who i am........think both sides hav their pts.... mabbe i will go think abt it n hopefully i can come to the perfect solutionn n be enlightened...but meanwhile....maojie shall be maojie....

mao mao posted at 8:48 pm.

has been a long time since i cry.... was telling myself not to cry.... but i guess i'm weak... i cried like a baby yesterday... crying when i took a final look at my grandpa b4 the undertakers finally close the lid of the coffin... but i was not alone.... everyone cried.. but none can compare to the grief of my grandma... she was unconsolable... i had the unenvious task of pulling her away frm the coffin as the eldest grandson... but i din hav the heart to pull her away.... who am i to deprive her of her last look at her husband... she was wailing n screaming at how my granpa was selfish to suddenly leave her behind.... tt was when i totally lost it... totally lost my composure n instead of pulling her away was sobbing wif her... now i finally understand wat mum always say...'it's the one tt remains tt suffer the most...' after the burial we went back to granma's place to rest....i found myself totally knocked out....i guess i'm not as fit as i would like myself to believe i am...staying awake thruout the wake is no joke...think is a combination of factors oso lah...mum was totally shagged out...cant do much as well...except be more obliging n listen to her...try not to make her pissed...no more trying to piss her off...at least for the next few wks to come...heh... i guess everyone deserved a break...thank goodness everthing is over... now i can concentrate on the things i want to do myself...

mao mao posted at 9:51 am.

finally it is over....my first professional bds is now offically behind my back...unless i got called up for the extinction viva...lets hope tt doesnt happen....has been a v draining 3 wk study break for me....esp the the recent wk....not juz mentally draining..but emotionally draining as well.... mentally drained frm the excessive mugging tt i'm still trying to get the hang on n emotional draining of the fact tt my grandfather passed away this wed.... but bet the 2...i will rather experience the mental drainage compared to the emotional... this wk muz be 1 of the most challenging wk of my life....got a ring frm my grandma last thurs afternoon...tt my grandpa fell while bathing...me n mum rushed there immediately...when i got there.. mum n i was trying to help grandpa up as he is still lying down on the floor...mum got hysterical n was hugging grandpa... keep telling him tt everything is ok....i called 995 n tried to tok to grandpa... he was holding onto my hand...gripping it so tightly tt it almost hurt n for once i c fear...fear in his eyes....fear tt he dunno wat happened to him...it is a moment i will remember for the rest of my life...shift him to let him sit on a chair but he is v weak n need to support himself.. tried to make him respond to my calls n check his pulse n pupil size....standard stuff i learn in first aid...concluded tt he was in shock n tt he did not hav any broken bones or anything...but i got suspicious when he dun seem to be moving his right hand... he was sent to sgh...i went together wif grandma...can c tt she is feelin lost... aniwae i tot it was juz a normal fall n hence i went back to mug after tt.... it was a decision tt i will regret.... later in the evening.. got a call frm mum... grandpa is in critical condition n has fell into a coma....is in icu.... suddenly the world crumbled...i felt lost....i felt useless...i tot i was rite...tt it was a normal fall... i am wrong....totally wrong... the next few days was v sucky...i dont hav any mood to mug...even tho my finals is in a few days time...went to visit everyday....hoping against hope he will wake up...only to hear tt his condition is getting worse...wtf!! the whole family is v upset n depressed....esp my mum...i cant take it when she cry...it hurts me like ...sometimes...it crazy to c her cry...i feel like crying oso.... but i told myself i cant...i muz not cry... coz i hav to be the support for my mum to lean on during these darkest days of her life......it suxs to be a guy... aniwae grandpa left on wed...the day i had my physio paper... was on the way to sgh after the paper...called mum if she wanted to get anything...only to find out tt they r at grandma's place... the truth sunk in....grandpa left....somehow i din cry....mabbe is coz i think it might be the best for him to go...at least he passed away peacefully....for tt i'm thankful...din study for my dental anat exam the next day....i juz couldnt do it...my tots r all jumbled up...i felt confused n depressed....it sux!! aniwae juz want to thank all my frens out there for leanding me a listening ear...u noe who u r.... i really appreciate it.....thank you!! i believe i will emerge a better n stronger person after this episode...

mao mao posted at 12:07 am.